I can't tell which one is doing worse my assignments, my love life, or my bank account

video for me?

I was like BBQ WTF is Jinny Boy made this video for me? The story line is exactly the same with what's going on me! Yes, i booked a flight ticket last few days for my "self-discovery journey". they said i'm insane to travel alone to other country but i just need a break, a temporary distract from anyone! i was like oh my Jesus when watching the clip until the last part (8.21) mins. yes luckily i watched till the end and guess what, the ending gave me a big shock? is the video still reflecting me after the 8 mins? only one can answer. BBQ   

告别堕落

好吧，天堂般的生活式也应该告一段落了吧.

4月份的英国。我和一班同乡都混熟了，也多了一位姐姐。迟些再介绍大家吧。然后中文也神速般的进步，英文却讲得伴桶水。然后啤酒当开水喝，扑克牌的玩意，然后凌晨入眠，然后时不时再来个大餐聚会，简直是富二代的生活呀。

我感恩一切的一切都来得对时间了，因为他们把快乐带给我，在我最需要的时候。就这样我熬了过来。

迈入5月。我突然又醒了，我知道一切只是过渡期，这天堂般的生活并不是我现在想要的。我还得朝梦想前进。

好吧，天堂般的生活式也应该告一段落了吧。

stupid me

I've learned

1. Never ever believe someone by their words!
2. Think twice before any action.

Yes now my glasses drop and my life full of regrets, if only time can turn back.

 

another sunny day!

ahhh. guess what? i'm feeling so guilty. of what? of over drinking, outing, spending, over enjoying too much fun until i'm getting this kinda feeling. something wrong with me? :'(

yes. especially when i not even read a sentence of book in the whole week, when i get tipsy, when i nearly puke, when i had a meal that cost me 30 pounds when i heard my friends around me said that they failed again for this and that subject. bbq. i feel so ashamed and  dare not to think of my parent. how they feel if they know i'm jolly kuat here.

but by doing all these only i feel good. at least i wouldn't get depress and hide in my room with tears and feeling lonely. my problem is yet to be solve, i've no idea what can i do to save this relationship. i pretend that i'm not care, i pretend that i'm strong enough to handle, actually i'm just running off from it.

anyway, here again me and my friend out to enjoy the wonderful day. never knew that i am actually love the sun. so much!

photo are all no filter. surprisingly i didn't look so bloated as in previous post. (:

with the right pose, your leg will magically look longer! and here, mine look so long. hahaha

the blue-est sky! 

it's MAY soon! omg! i pray for time passes slooooooooow please! i gonna miss u THE UK!

it's spring now

An outing with a bunch of lovely friends as a perfect ending for my holiday! Fantastic weather out there so i decided to bring my camera out and they came out this photo shoot idea in a private field and enjoy the sun!

so yeah, this is me with the rounded face and fatty tight! yes, i gained weight. bbq bbq

it was still windy so i had to keep my hand in the pocket to keep them warm. love this shoot anyway. 

the failed jump shot #1

 failed #2

failed #3 simply because i don;t know what mode to set when capture this kind of photo. cincai la. just jump and click. so it turned up like this.

yes, she is a dancer! beautiful face she has and a perfect body figure. sipek jealous neh.

fake dancer. hahaha

 we should have bring our sandwich and picnic and sun bathing there. very lou tou pose i know. hehe

they made me feel so young! i am such a happy person when mixing with the people who has positive energy. chose a right friend is indeed important (:

lose focus. how to take selfie with dslr? ahaha

我们不会翻跟斗，只好当背景

不会翻 又死命要入镜，只好当死人。够抢镜吧 

the left hand side one dropped from the sky. hahaha. so cute right

就算电话响也不出镜.hahaha

just another random thought after the outing. in my life of 25, i've had met a lot of people, some would be so important to me but some could just be a passer by. but whoever appear, whether to help me to harm to love me to hate me   *touch woods* i have no hater anyway, i believe they are sent by GOD for some reason. and i will meet all them with a peaceful heart and appreciate what i am having now. i am blessed. 

holiday with no holiday mood

my 3 weeks holiday is coming to an end soon. holy crap. for the first time, i wish i could fast forward and go back to class asap. oh, don't get me wrong, i am not a hardworking student just i am too boring here. some more recently some one has hit me down.deep down that kind. i never thought we would came into this situation and it is still remain unsolved. i admit it's my fault took him for granted. me wrong. sigh.

photo in uni before my holiday. this is my groupmate from Jordan and Vietnam. Quite handsome la the vietnamese and good to have him in our group. such a smart and hardworking guy.